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Jezebel A story bout a girl named Jezebel her life didn't go so well living life in a brothel like a genie in a bottle as a girl she laid at night she saw things men did that was not right the things they did in bed the secrets they bring to their deaths the fear of every wife the killer of every life once she grew,she was one of them she tried her best to over shine the rest it was not something she wanted to do she had a degree she wanted to pursue but now she's stuck in the hospital dying from not using protection its a pity for Jezebel she was going through so much hell.

everytime we on the phone we talk of everyone else but ourselves everytime we on msn you only talk about your friends you don't know how i feel i tear as i hear the words you say which holds nothing about us you say praises to make me feel great you say i love you eventhough you're str8 the world doesn't want us to be together the girls crawling just to get ya number i'm trying to be strong bout our dilemma i've gotta be strong so we could last longer i'm sorry i feel wrong i feel guilty i'm bad

bombarded posters of sahib abdullaev front covers with kiera some other hottie on men's health and another on harper's bazaar as day by day goes by i'm reminded that i'm not beautiful i cry these tears at night i've always thought i wasn't so superficial but it hit me when i knew it hurt to know i'm not beautiful maybe i'm more plastic than i thought so plastic i didnt know the truth look at what they did to lindsay see what happened to nicole richie how about Ana Reston who died just think about anna smith theres no more shit bout inner beauty its either you have it or you don't

i looked at you for guidance but you were a devil instead you got it wrong and gave me a hand what i meant was no you didn't understand the tragedy began for me i suffer in silence crying tears no one could see i didn't want violence so i didn't rebel and i let'em do what he wanted to i was touched...

for that night in the park under the stars i looked into your eyes so beautiful for that hour on the grass you showed me stars orion,ara and volans so wonderful for that minute we shared topics life,love,had éclairs looking out to the world so sweet for that moment you pecked my cheeks you intoxicated me with your kisses you teased me and made me yours for that moment ...

day by day I'm moving on going on, I'm trying to be strong sometimes i fall again to know that you are not with me i didn't mean to hurt you i didn't want to make you leave i couldn't see the signs that were just right in front of me could you forgive me forget all the things that i did start a new,me and you again..... day by day i always thought we'll go through whatever ever we'll last for so long till like forever ever until the day that we went under, i felt like it was my biggest blunder you stepped on my heart all over again i could feel the hurt of loosing a friend

i'm sorry if it seems like i'm neglecting you, i just have other stuff to do . i care for both of you equally, so please,don't get jealous so easily. i will call you because i need you, and you know you mean more than a friend. there will be times i wont be right beside you, but that doesn't mean the end. i message you every morning to make sure you're ok but you never reply and i have to send again i can sense the hostility everytime i'm out with him messaging me" fine spent time with him " how do you think that makes me feel